Friday, September 13, 2013

because of you.

Ciao Ragazzi!

Life has been extremely challenging lately. I feel like we keep getting hit in the face with this unbearable news and its breaking us. I am drowning. I was drowning. We moved to Italy away from every person we know and love with the intention of conquering the world. I truly believe the world is missing a 'how to' deal with shit when you live as an expat. Someone should write a rule book on how to cope with heartbreaking news when you are away from the ones you love. What are the steps? How do we get through it? Why do some of our "friends" drop us because we don't live down the street? Why are they only our friends when we are happy? Why do bad things really happen in threes? I officially hate the number 3.

We are so blessed to have the family and friends who are there for us no matter what. Through thick and thin. I can't explain the feeling when a friend can make you feel normal again when nothing in your life seems to be normal. I know the news we have been dealt with wouldn't be less heartbreaking if we were home but it would be comforting to spend that time with our favorite people. I've been a debbie-fucking-downer lately and I am so blessed to have the friends and family (far&close) in my life who do what they can to make me smile. Thank you. It's helping me stay sane and grounded and I will forever love you all. 

To my sweet husband. I love you. I am the luckiest girl in the world to have the most amazing human by my side. He's perfect. Sure we have our downs but our ups are what keep me going. They keep me from drowning. I can't thank him enough for everything he does for me and for us. Our worlds keep falling apart and yet we walk out alive and healthy...and happy. He gives me strength every day and I admire his ability to pick us both up. He's an incredible man and I'm grateful he's my man. I often ask myself how I got so lucky to have him. It scares me sometimes...How, why, what, me??? But I will never take him for granted and I know what we have is beyond special. It's beyond magical. He is my whole heart. We are doing our best to be strong. We make one hell of a team and life always goes on. We are making the most out of this incredible experience and we will conquer the world. 

Brandon, it's because of you that I smile every day. It's because of you that I love life so much. I love our life together.




6 comments:

ralizabeth said...

I've been wondering where you've been! Sending prayers and happy vibes your way!! I can relate w the friends thing. It boggles my mind how selfish people can be sometimes. You just have to think we are all human and we all make mistakes so it is expected that people suck sometimes. You are so lucky to have such an amazing husband. In time, things always get better. I read a similar post by a newly wed. While on a second honeymoon, she learned that she lost a loved one and she goes into detail on how she relied on her husband to get by and how they were still able to enjoy their experience while away despite what was going on back home. Here's the link if you want to read it :) http://lauralawsonvisconti.com/blog/blog/where-ive-been

TOI said...

I really hope you get well soon my dear.

It's wonderful to have a great guy like Brandon by yourself.

stay blessed

Jen ♥ said...

Hang in there girl. Isn't there a quote about the bad times make you pay attention to all the good things you weren't paying attention to before? Something like that. This too shall pass & all that jazz. In the meantime enjoy your beautiful surroundings and the man you love so much. Take care.

Unknown said...

There will never come a day when life will get the best of us. TOGETHER, we will ALWAYS get the best out of life. It doesn't matter where we are, where we live, what the situation might be, we'll always each other to rely on through good times, bad times and the surprises that life throws out every so often.

Love you til the end Mrs. Scarpelli

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Beauty said...

You are such a beautiful couple; Congratulations.

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