Life has been extremely challenging lately. I feel like we keep getting hit in the face with this unbearable news and its breaking us. I am drowning. I was drowning. We moved to Italy away from every person we know and love with the intention of conquering the world. I truly believe the world is missing a 'how to' deal with shit when you live as an expat. Someone should write a rule book on how to cope with heartbreaking news when you are away from the ones you love. What are the steps? How do we get through it? Why do some of our "friends" drop us because we don't live down the street? Why are they only our friends when we are happy? Why do bad things really happen in threes? I officially hate the number 3.
We are so blessed to have the family and friends who are there for us no matter what. Through thick and thin. I can't explain the feeling when a friend can make you feel normal again when nothing in your life seems to be normal. I know the news we have been dealt with wouldn't be less heartbreaking if we were home but it would be comforting to spend that time with our favorite people. I've been a debbie-fucking-downer lately and I am so blessed to have the friends and family (far&close) in my life who do what they can to make me smile. Thank you. It's helping me stay sane and grounded and I will forever love you all.
To my sweet husband. I love you. I am the luckiest girl in the world to have the most amazing human by my side. He's perfect. Sure we have our downs but our ups are what keep me going. They keep me from drowning. I can't thank him enough for everything he does for me and for us. Our worlds keep falling apart and yet we walk out alive and healthy...and happy. He gives me strength every day and I admire his ability to pick us both up. He's an incredible man and I'm grateful he's my man. I often ask myself how I got so lucky to have him. It scares me sometimes...How, why, what, me??? But I will never take him for granted and I know what we have is beyond special. It's beyond magical. He is my whole heart. We are doing our best to be strong. We make one hell of a team and life always goes on. We are making the most out of this incredible experience and we will conquer the world.
Brandon, it's because of you that I smile every day. It's because of you that I love life so much. I love our life together.